The Pursuit of Him

There are times in life marked by intoxicating joy and fulfillment, days where you felt your hand was truly clasped in His. You knew Him. He was there, conversing with you. And it was blessed.

Looking back, you see those times of joy and fulfillment as times you were close to the Saviour. And when your heart hungers, you seek the joy and fulfillment, hoping to find Him.

But joy is elusive. The more you grasp at it alone, the more it is simply not there. 

And you think, "I knew Him when I had joy," and seek all the more.

But He is standing, waiting. Not for you to seek and find joy. Not for self-fulfillment. Not for the pursuit of peace. But the pursuit of Him. To be given for Him. To be broken by Him. And to be full with Him.

So full that the search for joy is lost in obscurity. No longer needed. No longer searched for. No longer pined after. Because you have found Him. And He is giving more than you can hold.